She never looked so good

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 23:39:30 GMT

So the past few weeks have been eventful... I officially LEFT SJV, I am not going to monmouth regional high school... i miss my friends so much... so much... i bought a crate half stack, and had the fuckin head stolen from me.... damn idiots that steal stuff, ive been playing a lot of shows with A Chilling Silence, but we seem to be falling apart... eehhh... Nothing really else to write, Working at Acme kinda sucks, but its all good. I've been single for a long ass time, getting kinda sick of it. Im begining to set my sights on some girls, but eh idk. whatever kids

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 18:58:40 GMT

idk why im updating, but my short shit entries get a lot of comments, and when i put an effort

i dont get any attention :(

this weekend

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 20:50:27 GMT

Alright, so i kicked off the weekend at dans house friday night, chilled with him jesus and buyer all night, did some crazy shit, rocked out the guitars and drums as his neighbors complained like little bitchs, they suck, anyway, later that night we did some 34 action which was fuckin cool as hell hahaha, it was halarious. then JC and buyer were dropped off, and me and dan chilled out, i crashed out so did he, woke up in the mornining, went to work saturday.

Saturday:
Worked from 2:30-7:00. got picked up at work by steve Cic, and Utah, went to KOK, A LOT of people were there. We played right before the station blues, right after blind and driving, it was a sick ass show, theres some pics, just IM me to ask for them "Kill0the0lights"- definetly and awesome show. i RIPPED my guitar strap iw as goin all out it was fuckin awesome as hell.! haha. im DEFINETLY getting my half stack!!!! YES YES YES!!!! :):):):):)!!!!

Today:
Off from school, got a call from work, so i had to go work which kinda sucked but it was all good, because that means i ge tmore monaayyy! i feel bad because i wanted to chill with lenny buyer and JC today, but shit got fucked up. :( its all good in the hood though, we'll all jam soon.

IN THE FUTURE! (lol im so gay):
Tomorrow is school :(, then Wednesday i take PSATS and i hope to go to nicole's with no parental supervision (SCORE!) if mike decides to take me home which i hope he does, because i been anticipating this for sooo fucking long<333. Hmm, then its only 4 days this week , workin thursday and saturday thats all, hopin to play a show on saturday at I CAFE, doubt it'll happen. but THIS NOVEMBER! ACS IS RECORDING BUY THE CD!!! lol, and this december we're playing some venue WAY up north jersey, with BIG ASS BANDS! how cool?! lol arite and the 26th of december im goin to the thursday/glassjaw show. then uhmm sometime in december im goin to a Senses Fail show with Lenny (???) that would be rad

..wow that was long. haha havent updated like that in a good amount of time, enjoy it kids.!

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 00:05:01 GMT

So, yeah i had work today, and i got some foriegn faggit, called me stupid and said i should be fired, because im a fuckin moron? i came too close to slmming his face. :)

other then taht good day, school sucks. definetly does.

hahaha i have NOTHING to write in here, anymore at all. lol. awesome,

to be the last one, who will sing you to sleep

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 21:08:15 GMT

so today in school was gay ass.. i cut yesterday.

Jodies party was pretty damn cool, it was really fun... after the party i crashed at jodies house, and cut school on monday, we went to the mall and she wanted to go get stuff with her gift cards so i just zoned out while she did her shoppin, it was pretty rad actually. i caught up with myslef, not something i get to do too often

this november! A CHILLING SILENCE will be recording at MB studios on Freehold, we're hoping to get a good demo out there, so all those who can get out to shows can hear us, and those who are faithful to us and want to help us out even more by buying our CD, those faithful lovely girls and boys who attend our concerts! :)

so yeah thats all the news, school is gay, so are you and all your friends, unless you love me, then your cool. arite im out kids
later...

Hey, long time to talk chaps

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 22:33:20 GMT

Well those of you that know about my turmoil this past september, just to give release everything turned out quite fine.

so this friday A Chilling Silence is playing at I Cafe, it should be an excellent show as normal. so go out and see us hott boys play.

I shoul dbe studying for my gigantic Chem test tomorrow, but hey, who does that anymore... its so out of style. Ahh procrastination, my flaw <3.

so yeah things are going swell...

Fuck. Fucj,

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:47:17 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I hate you.

Go away.

I SWARE WHEN I CUT MYSELF I WISH IT WAS YOU!

"Give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill"-MCR

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 21:49:25 GMT

Today was rather boring, no school for freshman orientation. Some things have been irritating me lately, and i can't deal with them alone, but as always i have no choice, and I'm in it for the long run this time, so I'm looking at aboue 6-7 months of pure hell. Its going to be beautiful when everyone realizes the mess I've made of myself.

So i got the job at ACME.. Im going into work Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. For training and this saturday im getting my uniform or whatever. It should be good, im lookin forward to having money, and all. I need to get my half stack then pay for studio time whenever it happens. BAD NEWS.. Utah is going to be at some wedding in california, so no studio for us anytime soon, oh well... ACS isnt having any shows any time soon i don't think... we're writing some new interesting stuff though. well i am.. idk about them.

Subjected to forgeting your name

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 00:44:45 GMT

I'm talented im unique im different i am real
i sware to god im not like them, i don't feel
my tears are evident and on display
my heart is torn, from the words you insisted you say
I die of my own resiliance
my friends are dying in my eyes only
Im blinded ny your brilliance
Cause of death : the words you insisted you say

Finish me sweetheart
Fulful your promise, tear me apart
connect the bloody patterns on the stars
diagnose me with loss of control
wont you hold me?
wont you kill me.
wont you please

I sware the knife is beautiful in all prospects
I believe in love as much as i believe in prophets
My hate is the latest star-struck memory
tied to the bed post and lost in your black tears
they shall evaporate the faces of all your fears
So kiss me, this is the last time that you see me
Wave, to me love, wave and forget my place
Empty your heart, store it in the locket
you shelter like a noose around your throat
i shall die at war, on this frigate

i wish i could set everything okay
but now only time will tell
the stories of the elders
the stories of...
the forgotten names
turn to ghosts
turn to skelitons in the closet
Love, dont open that locket.

Close your eyes. close them forever to forget the names. forget.

<-- just wrote that "Subjected to Forgetting your name" Im in a really shitty mood. schools back in session, and i sware I've never been more miserable, even the thought that im getting my permit soon evaporates to tears, i sware i need to get out of here... i need to leave.

im sorry it took me so long

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 22:38:58 GMT

thank you those that have been there for me through this, you know who you are. A bad accident has occoured that's all ill post on live journal. I love everyone who has been there for me and assisted me in the attempt to make things right and okay.

all we can do now is wait. either way, i love you nicole. one of my best friends.

tomorrow is my birthday... i cant wait to be 16...

God i hope everything is Okay. its killing my nerves...

i did this to take my mind off things. i got it of laura aniello's xanga..

Series 1: Basics
Name: John
Birthdate: Sept. 5th (Tomorrow)
Birthplace: jersey City
Current Location: Tinton Falls
Current School: SJV
Current Job: Acme Markets... fuckers
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brownish whatever
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: virgo
Innie or Outtie: innie
Religion: fuck it

Series 2: Who is...?
the prettiest male you know: Davey Havoc, or andy hubbard lol
the prettiest female you know: hehe
The weirdest person you know: probably myself
Loudest Person you Know: me
the Quietest Person you Know: hmm idk?
the Sweetest Person you Know: uhmmmmmm
the Sexiest Person you Know: ;)
Your closest friends: You know who you are
the Person that Knows the Most about you: jodie.
the person you love the most in the whole entire world right now forever: :)
your Crush?: no one really
Most Boring Teacher: all of them

Series 3: What is...?
your most overused phrase on aol: awesome.
the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning: this sucks.
last image/thought you go to sleep with: too much
your best feature: my ass
your greatest accomplishment: no real accomplishments.
your most missed memory: august 12th.

Series 4: Do You...?
take a shower everyday: maybe
have a(any) crush(es): nope
think you know you've been in love: yes
want to get married: yeah
Believe in yourself: sometimes
have any tattoos/where?: nah
piercings/where?: want my lip... bad
get motion sickness: (spins in chair).... nope.
think you're a health freak: yes
get along with your parents: eh
like thunderstorms: no... i love thunderstorms

Series 5: Your Future:
Age you hope to be married?: 23-25
Number and Names of Children: 2 boy(august) girl (allison)
Where do you see yourself at at age 30: In a band
Descibe your Dream Wedding: van halen playing the wedding song! FUCKAAHS!
What do you want to be when you grow up?: a big name musician in a rock out band..
What country would you most like to visit?: im not in foriegn people.

Series 6: what you think of the opposite sex?
best eye color?: green
best hair color?: hahaha as long as its not any shorter than the bottom of their chin, im fine.
short or long hair?: long.. uhmm im a dude.
best height?: SHORTER
best articles of clothing?: skirts. thongs ... yeah...
best first date location?: Beach.
best first kiss location?: anywhere im not bein watched
describe your dream mate: short, nice ass, sweetheart, treats me right.

series 7: Other:
What do you Wear to bed?: my boxers
When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?: hahaha last night bitches.
How many rings until you answer the phone?: like 7000 cuz im lazy
What's on your mouse pad?: dell
How many houses have you lived in?: 1
How many schools have you gone to?: well... 2
What color is your bedroom carpet?: its wood.
Are you in love? rawr
Have you ever been in love? rawr
Are you sexually active? GRR!!
Do you have a significant other? not really
How well do love and sex go together? very well
Would you ever give oral sex in a random hookup? hmm... depends on what i get.
Do you even do random hookups? yeah
Have you ever been a "slut" or a "player" in a serious manner? player, is a retarted term, because bein a player is keepin yourself from letting girls break your heart.
Do you use people? dont believe in it
Been used? all the fuckin time
Do you believe in waiting until marriage to have sex? nope
Have you ever had a crush on a friend's boy/girlfriend? haha yeah but im not a gf stealer
Have you ever done anything with a friend's boy/girlfriend? well. no i wouldnt do that
Is it really better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all? shut up. shakspearian bulshit
Has anyone ever used a pick up line on you? haha yeah...
Do you like bad boys? oh yeah baby.
Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? hahayeah dude.
do you joke about sex a lot? mmmhmm
Do you relate anything to sex? yes... math..
When was the last time you got some? thursday night </3 Is there someone you're longing to be with right this very second? yeah a few people. So, what's your ideal romantic date? alone If you liked someone and they asked you out, but they didn't believe in sex before marriage, would you turn them down? ehh. no. as long as they did everything else Does someone's social status/reputation have an effect on whether you would say yes or no if they asked you out? not at all. Would you date someone who would be likely to get you in trouble? no What about masturbating, do you do it? hahahahahaahahahhahahhahahah ... ...ahahahahahahahahaha Ever been caught masturbating? =x ever been caught doing something sexual with someone? mhm Ever walked in on your parents having sex?AAAAAAAAH DUDE! STFU! Do you carry condoms even if you never end up using them? yeah actually would you/have you ever skinny dipped? yeah dude its awesome Have you had sex? uhh yea? More than 50 times? lost count kid. Have you ever given anyone a blow job? well... shh. you ever fingered someone? hahaha im knowwwwnnn for that shit. If someone paid you, would you have sex with someone of the same sex as you? yeah sure. a lot of money Are You Straight or Gay? i can think guys are hot, but id never do anything with a guy If you could, would you look in on someone having sex? thats so wierd. Would you look in on your parents having sex? mmm... let me thinkabout that one... SHUT THE FUCK UP! Girls, have you ever been pregnant? i have, but im not a girl.. Do you think any of your siblings are sexy? ha. Have you ever had oral sex? a buncha times Have you ever had sex with a stranger? thats wierd dude If not, do you want to? sure lol Which one are you more afraid of getting...Aids or Pregnant? both, but at the same time? thats killer dude. Have you tried: Caffeine: sure Alcohol: Yes Tobacco: yes Marijuana: yes Cocaine: yes LSD: nop PCP: no DMT: no Ketamine: no Dextromethorphan: no Opium: yeah Heroin: i hate needles Morphine: yes Methadone: no What does your name mean? it means im gunna kick your ass fucker How old are you? 16 How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?) yeah no one beleves im only 16 What are your worst qualities? i dont think before i speak/act sometimes What are your best qualities? im intelligent and tallented, i guess. lol How long does it take you get ready in the morning? 15 minutes ~SLEEP~ Do you dream at night? yeah do you remember your dreams? UHMM IF I SAID I DO DREAM OBVIOUSLY I DO ASSHOLE Describe one: no What time do you go to bed usually? when i get tired What time do you wake up normally? when im not tired anymore What time do you wake on weekends? shut up Do you find waking late nice or annoying? awesome Do you sleep with one pillow or two? 3 ~SCHOOL~ Do you like school? not really Why/why not? it sucks Whats ur fave subject? lunch Most hated subject? math and everything else Do you have a fave teacher? kinda Ever had a crush on a teacher/coach? asking this Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? slacker/low-life ~FAMILY~ Do you like your parents? uhhhmm sure Ever run away from home? yea? Ever thought about it? shut up Do you have any siblings? yep If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? not frequently How old are they? 19 If not, do you mind being an only child? wow Do you feel your parents spoil you? no! Do you have big family get togethers ever? hahaha shut up!!!!!!!!!!! ~RELATIONSHIPS~ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? naaah If so, are you in love with them? - Do they love you? - Do you have a crush? no! If so, are you in love? with my friends Do they know you like them? yes Is it serious or playful? both How long have you liked them? forever won something stupid to impress them? sure pal erienced unrequited love? unrequited Do u find it romantic or hurtful? both Even know what it is? shutup ~Religion~ Do you have a religion? no Do you practice it i.e go to church? SHUT UP Do you believe in God? i belive thers something after this life. thats all Jesus? no Satan? hes my half brother dude Heaven? no Hell? thats this stupid survey If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? id become a wood nymph and feed on tree bark.... or something Does death scare you? nope ~Morals~ Have you ever been drunk? yes Taken drugs? yes Stolen? yes Shoplifted? yes Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? yes Gotten into a fight? yes Are you more innocent or guilty? guilty Would you date a drug addict? no Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? yes Are you racist? yes :) but i only excentuate your racial issue if you anger me. Are you discriminatory to anyone? yes we all are Have you been a hypocrite in the past? maybe Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? open ~Media~ Do you watch tons of tv? no.. telivision viewing time has no weight How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? why do you ask? HUH!? Do you listen to the radio often? i hate the radio it over plays good music, and bad. and over playing good or bad music is... well BAD Do you read the newspaper? no i dont care about whats going on in the world Do you read magazines? not really Are you a couch potato? no i dont want to be a potatoe im a couch broccoli Do you use the internet too much? yes ~Music~ Whats your fave style of music? rock. Do you play an instrument? guitar. Do you sing? yea Whats your fave band? Right now its AFI Why? they fuckin kick ass Have you met them before? hmm Name 3 cds that you've bought in that 6 months: i dont buy cds. im a pirate! ARR! Why did you buy them? because i wanted to look at them, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK! ~Sport~ sucks. no answers here people Whats your fave sport? Whats your fave sport to watch? Do you have a fave team of any sort? Do you play a lot of sports? Personality~ Are you funny or serious? funny Creative or not? creative Logical thinker or lateral thinker? logical Are you outgoing or shy? outgoing Are you lazy or active? active Have you ever been hyperactive? yes Are you a naturally hyperactive person? shut up ~Looks~ Are you happy with the way you look? i wanna be skinier. Are others? yeah What would you change? my fatness Do you wear makeup regularly? nah Do you have a large wardrobe? not really ~Embarassing Moments~ Your all time most embarassing moment? when i farted and my mom went "OH ITS STINKY" and my sisters roomate and her ENTIRE family was standing outside the dormatory room. ha. that was great.. Ever snorted drink out your nose? yeah!!! Ever giggled like an idiot? yeeeaaa Ever embarassed yourself and pretended nothing happened? yes Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? uhmm no? Ever said something really stupid? yes Ever snorted while laughing? yes Ever fallen off a bed? haha awesome Ever sleepwalked? no Ever talked in your sleep? i just make funny noises ~Memories~ Whats your best memory? the times with those who i love. Worst? none are bad Whats the weirdest memory you have? R.I.P Do you have a good memory? yes What's the coolest holiday you remember having? the one where i finished this survey YEAHHH FUCKERSS!

Random.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 22:54:46 GMT

hey, if i mean anything at all to you, anything. comment and tell me what it is, if your not an LJ user put your name as the subject of the comment <3 thank you.

So yeah, chloe is a lost cause, the guy said it woul dcost over 400 dollars to have it fixed and able to play again, its really depressing... :(

so my birthday is sunday, yay. like its actually going to matter to anyone at all.. woo.

sorry im in a shitty mood, but im seein nicole tonight so that makes me very happy... :)

alright kids ill talk to you later.

poison hearts will never change

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 20:05:17 GMT

This update is by special request.. lol

so yeah the past few days have been pretty eventful. the finishing touches have been completed on Chloe (my custom SG) so i need to go buy parts, that will most likely be on wednesday... uhmm, i had a band practice, we knew our shit like it was our job so we really dont need practice, we're show ready but uhmm.. yeah looks like we're not havin a show anytime soon, which sucks... summers almost over which is realyl depressing, yet im gunna be happy to see all my people again. Oh well. This weekend really sucked, we drove up to penn state to drop beth off :( shes gone :(:(:(:(:( that really sucks, i miss her already. Im really bored, tuesday night dan is sleepin over i think so that should be totally rad. arite kids im done with this shit, ttyl.

you think they're selling you truth, thruth is they're selling you out

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 19:09:28 GMT

Last night i chilled at dan's house it was so great, we set stuff on fire and shot bb guns at windows lol. It was friggin cool as hell. But right now im so frggin bored its not even funny, its raining like a mother fucker outside, so thats pretty cool. I did some writing on my guitar befre that was awesome. I haven't been doing much lately so it really sucks.. Soon me and ACS are heading off to the studio. so like it fuckers.

school is so close.... :(... but its okay i guess....

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 18:37:50 GMT

Do you feel my rush, my vigor
Do you see my hush, my figure
I wish I could hide in the sun
But seems all they do is run
Would you greet my hate, my courage
Would you seek my love, my fear
Let this raise the dead from their graves
Lets pretend our affection is what saves

And lets run away, oh lets get away

Forever in the ashes of September
All those special dates you
seized to remember
lets fall together, into the circle of bad luck
let us die, oh let us fall
Into the Ashes of September.

I don’t think we’ll ever get away..

Do you remember when we held hands
Does it mean anything at all
When we use to dig our feet in to the sands
Does the rise really outweigh the fall
because your crying
Oh yes, your crying.
I am bleeding
Oh yes, I am Bleeding.

You’re a lush, and im lover
you are red and I am blue
theres no one in this world
thats more differen than you
but yet we stay together
and yes we’ll die together
and we’ll die young
in the midst of our youth

Let me be your let down
oh, let me be your let down

please.

thats my latest work "the Ashes Of September"... Im really bored an hungry, in a shitty mood. i wanna go out tonight, but idk if anyone wants to do anything... its okay ill play video games... and guitar. and maybe talk on the phone with the cool kids that are like me <3. i so bored.. yesterday i chilled with tommy brown that was pretty cool i applied the last coat of polyurithane on my guitar and now i hope to get my parts and put it back together...

can we cast our shadows alone in the dark?

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 16:39:39 GMT

So last night i saw nikolle, we had a good time, did what we always do. It was nifty.

You call it murder i call it passion.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 16:46:11 GMT

alright so this is how it all went down... tuesday i chilled out relaxed a bit... got all ready.

Thursday!
I get to matt's at about 4:00 and we drive over to Drews and help finish loading up the stuff, pretty rad. We jump in the cars and head over to RB. We go into Cluck-U... fuckin awesome they make KFC look like shit! hahaha. then we unloaded the truck and the car into the ally in the back of the I cafe. I missed Heros which ticked me off but its arite i saw Heidi, absolutely amazing, check em out. i borrowed their guitarists amp so hes a cool kid! We were on... it went amazing! the whols crowd was way into us and my solo in black heart lover... omfgggg it was amazing i had a BLAST. So that show was intensely amazing, i tore it up! Then i got to see Nikolle and hang out with her mike and megan. We had some fun walkin around and shit.

Friday...
We get to Krome, its a shitty day, raining and shit... We get there and unload the stuff. no one was there. We're there pretty phsyched up about going on third... OH HEY it's a Complete Death Metal show and we're playing last whoo hoo. i hate death metal, and all the kids that like it. so now i have to play emo/core in front of 50 death kids. oh no they decided to all leave when we went on so we got to play in front of like what 7 people, 5 of which were our friends. Bleh, whatever. October we are going into the studio and getting a CD out... so awesome. But last night was a pretty shitty night, although applebees was fun hahaha we got all appetizers! I got home by like 12:30. Talked to Nikolle on the phone and then i just crashed. and woke up not 15 minutes ago..

THURSDAY ALMOST HERE

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 19:11:02 GMT

oohh maaan i can't wait till thursday, be in the eyes of over a 100 people there to see my band play... ggaaaaahhh!! so many of my friends are goin its sooo sick! some people i have yet to meet are gunna be there ;) hehe.

but yes, thursday. cant wait! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA HORIHAN!!! I LOVE YOU! :) im goin to the party tonight with MIke D. it should be pretty rad kids.

later.

oh maaann...

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 15:57:24 GMT

Last night was crazy, i chilled with Lenny, slept over. We started some trouble over at blimpie like cool kids and hit up some sandwitches. then we ditched out and jammed it out at lenny's casa for a few then got over to pauls to start heelpin him out. They played a siiick ass concert, some rad songs they picked. i gotta big ass bruise on my arm from carryin shit. Then Rich's guitar string snapped so i made like a hardcore kid and restrung it for him. He thought that was Effin geneous. So yeah. Then i rocked it out back at paul's house and they were maad impressed with me and my guitar, so cool.

Now- th fun part :)
Me and Sir. Lenny got fucking PLASTERD to put it in a less intense fasion.

dans casa

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 06:14:49 GMT

hey im at dans casa people. we be chillin. so later today im gettin my hair all cut and shaped and what-not should look sexy. everythings goin cool with my band, yesterday we practiced and we layed down a new song we hope to rock out at the show on the 12th that ll you super cool people are goin to! if you dont i hate you. yeah. i hate you.

arite im out kids. later./

got this from regina.

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 16:47:28 GMT

Have you ever...(put an X next to the things that apply to you)
(X) been drunk.
(X) smoked pot.
(X) kissed a member of the opposite sex.
(X) rode in a taxi.
(X) been dumped.
(X) shoplifted.
( ) been fired.
(X) been in a fist fight
( ) had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
(X) snuck out of your parent's house.
( ) been arrested.
(X) made out with a stranger
( ) stole something from your job
( ) celebrated new years in times square.
(X) went on a blind date.
(X) lied to a friend (for decent purposes only).
(x) had a crush on a teacher.
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
( ) been to Europe

a p p e a r a n c e
Height: 5'8
Hair color: Brownish
Skin color: white, kinda tan
Eye color: brown
Piercings: nope
Tattoos: nope

r i g h t n o w
What color are the pants that you are wearing? Kahki-ish
What song are you listening to right now? Dashboard - the best deceptions
What taste is in your mouth? tooth paste
What's the weather like now? hot
How are you? excited
Get motion sickness? nope
Have a bad habit? of course
Like to drive? yea

f a v o r i t e s
TV shows: friday night standup
Conditioner: uhm, okay
Book: dont read too much
Non-alcoholic sad to say but addicted to: sex
Alcoholic drink: Screwdriver with crandbury juice
Thing to do on the weekend: band stuff, and chill with mi amigos

h a v e y o u...
Broken the law: haha yaaaaah.
Ran away from home: yep
Snuck out of the house: yep
Ever gone skinny dipping: yep
Ever tipped over a porta potty: HAHA yeah!! me and jay glezman in 8th grade! ahh i miss that kid
Used your parents' credit card before: yep
Fell asleep in shower/bath: mhmm in the morning before school
Been in a school play: haha yeah, against my will

l o v e
girlfriend: </3 boyfriend: my band Children: yeah, my nuts. Current crush: ehh. Been in love: sorry to say so. Hard time getting over someone: yep Been hurt: mmhmm Your greatest regret: breathing Gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: lol yeah r a n d o m Do you have a job: im getting one, but right now my band. Your cd player has in it right now: Atreyu - The Curse (not playing) If you were a crayon what color would you be: orange What makes you happy: My band and music What makes you happiest: music What's the next CD you're gonna get: My Chemical Romance's new one w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t Time you cried: ehh.. Time you got e-mail: today Thing you purchased: movie ticket Movie you saw in the theater: the bourne supremacy 1) Last dream: all have faded 2) Last car ride: ride home from the movie that was sold out last night 3) Last kiss: a while ago. 4) Last good cry: sadly i cant count the days on two hands since 5) Last Missing Library Book: who cares 6) Last movie seen: The Bourne Supremacy. 7) Last Book Read: uhmmm. i forget 8) Last cuss word uttered: bitch, but fuck came before that. 9) Last beverage drank: milk last night maybe. 10) Last Food consumed: your ass. ew.. 12) Last phone call: dannnn 13) Last TV show watched: dont watch tv 14) Last Item Bought: you asked this 15) Last time showered: yesterday at some point, but im takin one after this survey 16) Last shoes worn: my sandals 17) Last CD played: atreyu-the curse 18) Last downloaded: Dashboard songs 19) Last annoyance: my love life 20) Last disappointment: love 21) Last soda drank: pepsi one 22) Last thing written: my latest poem 23) Last key used: backspace. 24) Last words spoken: "it seems our day keeps falling on a leap year" and i was singing. 25) Last trip to the bathroom: this morning when i woke up 26) Last sleep: likw 1 hour ago 27) Last IM: nikolle 28) Last sexual fantasy: oh boy... 30) Last weird encounter: when i met the aliens 31) Last Store Shopped at: pac sun 32) Last ice cream eaten: i dont like ice cream 33) Last time amused: this morning. 34) Last time wanting to die: hmmm. 35) Last time in love: :( 36) Last time hugged: too long. 37) Last time scolded: while ago. maybe? 38) Last time resentful: hmm. 39) Last chair sat in: computer chair... idiot survey. 40) Last lipstick used: hahaha shut up. 41) Last underwear worn: ANTS IN YOUR PANTS boxers, goin cool style. 42) Last bra worn: i like to think i dont have boobs. 43) Last shirt worn: white independant shirt 44) Last class attended: Spanish 46) Last time dancing: like now man, im a dancin fool 47) Last poster looked at: AFI 48) Last concert attended: hmm i forget 49) Last webpage visited: Livejournal Well besides all that, today is day one of recording at red band rehearsal studios! we are begining preperations for the recording of our cd. You should all buy it like good kids. lol awesome. later.

coooool stuff kids

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 15:38:11 GMT

okay, so fuck all the nights before last i dont give a fuck enough to remember them. But last night was sick, i chilled with Mike D'Marco. we went to the mall, wanted to cause trouble and annoyance but not enough poeple around :( oh well. So then we saw the Bourne Supremicy, it was arite, nothing too special.. not a lot of action in this one. We then blaster rap music with the windowd rolled down, i felt black for the first time in my life ::tear of joy:: hahahaha :P cool stuff.

-IN OTHER NEWS!
My SG is coming out amazing, i sanded off pretty much all of the black paint, stuff. now i need to get what i missed with this small little tool, between all the little parts that dont fit a big fuckin rotary sander lol. but yeah, then after i get that all done, im goin to hand sand it, then stain it. All im gunna do to it is give it a dark wood-stain. slap on 3 or 4 coats of plyurithane. then my mom said ican buy all this stuff to put on it (only read this if you understand guitarian, otherwise no point)

(2) EMG 81's
(6) Gibson "Grover" Tuning keys
(2) knobs (Gibson custom volume/tone)
(1) SG pick guard, black with white trim
(1) Gibsont Rythm/Treble switch
--> Truss Rod and guitar adjustments all made such as the bolts, nuts, action, sound ratios. all that pretty stuff.

P.S. Gutarian = Guitar language. lol arite later kids

Bored in a can.

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 20:01:06 GMT

So i thought i crapped up my SG for no good reason but it turns out after sanding it like amother fucker im started to see wood! yes! lol so i didnt ruin my guitar... i hope.. lol its all cool... im thinking if i get it down to the wood if i like the way to wood looks im just going to stain/brown glaze it, add a black pic guard, some new tuning keys knobs and rythm/treble switch... its gunna be pretty, and i hope to stencil in the name "Chloe" on the headstock instead of "epiphone" lol...

so yeah i have an important announcement.

AUGUST 12TH INTERNET CAFE RED BANK. A CHILLING SILENCE. BE THERE.

Boredom gives you this survey

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 04:01:18 GMT

?? HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: no
2. Ran away: yes
3. Pictured your crush naked: uhmm... well.. maybe?
4. Actually seen your crush naked: hahaha few times
5. Broken someone's heart: yes
6. Been in love: yes
7. Cried when someone died: yea
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: definetly
9. Broken a bone: a few
10. Drank alcohol: HELL YEAH
11. Lied: hmm yes.
12. Cried in school: hahah in like 1st grade

?? WHICH IS BETTER

13. COKE OR PEPSI: PEPSI
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: Sprite
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: Girls, accept a few days out of the month
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: Neither
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: Uhmm on girls? DUDE!
18. QUIET OR LOUD: Loud
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: Any, doesnt matter
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: neither
21. TALL OR SHORT: short
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: weather depending. shorts are hotter tho, unless its those tight ass pants

?? WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX

23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: Physical apperance, but if her personality sucks, so does her looks, no matter who it is.
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: hahaha who knows.
25. WORST QUESTION TO ASK: uhmm idk?
26. SHOWERED: No 1, parents always home
27. HAD SEX: a lot...
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: a lot

?? WHAT IS

29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: My 2 year old Etnies
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: I hate no one. people i dislike i forget they exist.
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: I farted and lost my stomach ache

?? FAVORITES

32. COLOR: Orange
33. MOVIE: Holy Grail
34. BOOK: None
35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: HISTORY OF ROCK BITCH!
36. JUICE: Orange
37. CARS: 1967 corvette split window.
38. ICE CREAM: dont really like ice cream
39. HOLIDAY:Christmas
40. SEASON: summer
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: BAGEL
42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HONEY: On my lawn ;)

?? WHO

43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: Matt.
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: Friends
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: ehh.
46. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: a few people.
47. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH: i guess so.
48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT: Jodie
49. HAS IT EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: Guys

?? DO YOU EVER

50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: nope
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: nope

52. SAVE E-MAILS: nope
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: nope
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: nope
55. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: nope

?? BEST

56. COLOGNE: Axe... its what i wear!
57. PERFUME: Hmm idk the names of em.
58. KISS: hehehe..
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: My front lawn ;)
60. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: "You should die"

?? HAVE YOU:

61. Fallen for your best friend?: yeasssss...
62. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: hahah all the time.
63. Been rejected?: chyaaa
64. Been in love?: yeap
65. Been in lust?: hell yeah
66. Used someone?: not that i know of.
67. Been used?: over and over
68. Cheated on someone?: nope
69. Been cheated on?: hahaha too many times
70. Been kissed?: yeaaah
71. Done something you regret?: mhmm

Who was the last person...

72. You touched?: in a sexual way nikolle. in a non sexual way... i forget.
73. You talked to?: My plaio, Brittany
74. You hugged?: hmmm, i forget i give a lot of hugs
75. You instant messaged?: Brittany
76. You kissed?: nikolle
77. You had sex with?: nikolle
78. You yelled at?: nikolle
79. You laughed with?: mike
80. Who broke your heart?: hmmm...
81. Who told you they loved you?: jodie

Do you..

82. Color your hair? nope
83. Have tattoos? i want one
84. Have piercings? nope i want my lip tho
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? gf
86. Own a webcam? yes
87. Own a thong? HAHAHA... HELL YAH
88. Ever get off the damn computer? uhh yeah.
89. Sprechen sie deutsche? what?
90. Habla espanol? yeah
91. Quack? hell yeah

Have you / do you / are you...
92. Stolen anything? yes
93. Smoke? sometimes
94. Schizophrenic? nope
95. Obsessive? somteims
96. Compulsive? somteims
97. Obsessive compulsive? uhh i dguess so jackass
98. Panic? yes
99. Anxiety? yes
100. Depressed? yes
101. Suicidal? ehhh
102. Obsessed with hate? nope
103. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? uhh wow dude.
104. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? yees!
105. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? In hell
106. Can you do anything freakish with your body? sure

107. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes
108. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: haha i hate all presidents
109. Would you marry for money?: sure

110. Have you had braces?: yes sir
111. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: no
112. Do you like hairy backs?: UHMMM HAHAHAHA
113. When was the last time you had a hickey?: hahaha i forget
114. Could you live without a computer?: nah
115. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: yes
116. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 109
117. If you could live in any past, where would it be? DONOSAURS!
119. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: i dont know?
120. What is your favorite fruit?: i lik em all

121. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: PETA BREAD ROCKS
122. What is your favorite place to visit?: Florida
123. What is the last movie you saw?: uhmm...... I FORGET!! anchorman maybe?
124. Do you kiss on the first date?: sure
125. Are you photogenic?: nope
126. Do you dream in color or black and white?: never notticed
127. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: nope
128. Is it chipped or fresh?: uhm .
129. Do you have any dimples?: no
130. Do you remember being born?: wtf dude no one does.
131. Why do you take surveys?: Cuz im bored
132. Do you drink alcohol? If so, what is your favorite drink?: Screwdriver with Cranberry juice added.
133. Did you like or do you like high school?: some parts are ok
134. What is the best accent? english
135. Who do you want to kiss? hmmm.. :)
136. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets.
137. Do you want to live to be 100?: hahaha hell no
138. Is a flat stomach important to you?: yes
139. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yea
140. Are you loyal?: yes
141. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: do what ya want, doesnt mean your not an idiot tho
142. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: OFF
143. Do you have nightmares frequently?: yes
145. Do you think you can draw well?: no
146. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: UHMM RIGHT NOW! ::cries::
147. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: uhmm, my etnies, Ipaths, DCs, Adios and my sandals/

148. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or doyou like a variety? depends
149. Do you write poetry?: yeap
150. Do you snore?: i wouldnt know
151. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: front
152. dog/cat? at home: little shitty dog. i love him!
153. Do you lick stamps?: uhmm... yeah when i mail shit
154. Do you use an electric can opener?: uhmm sure
155. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: uhmm no
156. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: Emotional
157. Favorite TV show?: Family Guy
158. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: just depressed
159. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: both, together
160. Are you a sex addict?: nope
161. Do you know someone who has cancer?: a lot
162. Do you like to argue?: no
163. Do you hunt?: CUNT HUNT... lol dan!
164. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive
restaurants?: doesnt matter.
165. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: art museaum
166. Do you have a middle name? yes
167. Are you basically a happy person?: depends
168. Are you tired?: haha kinda
169. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: YES
170. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: sure
171. How many phones do you have in your house?: two house 4 cells
172. How long is your hair?: middle of my cheek. goes to the top of my back
173. Do you get along with your parents?: for the most part
174. What color of eyes do you prefer?: pretty ones
175. Full name: John Jude Csontos
176. Were you named after anyone? No clue

177. Do you wish on stars? nope
178. Which finger is your favorite? the one between my legs
179. When did you last cry? i forget
181. Do you like your handwriting? hhaha no
182. Who do you admire: Eric Clapton or Kirk Hammett
183. What is the #1 priority in your life? Myself
184. What is your favorite lunchmeat? ham
185. Any bad habits?: yeah.
186. What is your most embarrassing CD? good charlotte, I BURNED IT
187. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? sure
188. Are you a daredevil? hell yea
189. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? yes
190. Have you ever stolen anything? yes
191. Do looks matter? of course
192. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? nope
193. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? stfu
194. Do fish have feelings? yes
195. Are you trendy? no way
196. How do you release anger? guitar
197. Where is your second home? tom's
198. Do you trust others easily? yes
199. What was your favorite toy as a child? my little cars
200. What class in school do you think is totally useless? None really
201. Do you like sappy love songs? not really some are ok
202. Have you ever been on radio or television? nope
203. Do you have a journal? Yes
204. Do you use sarcasm a lot? haha yeah
205. Have you ever been in another country?: no
206. Quaker erased it.
207. What is your nickname? Jonny
208. Would you bungee jump? yes
209. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no
210. What are you worried about right now? my relationship.
211. Do you ever wear overalls? no
212. Do you think you are strong? yes
213. What's your mom's job? kindergarten teacher
214. What's your dad's job? cop in JC
215. What's your least favorite thing in the world? peopel that try too hard to not be trendy
216. How many wisdom teeth do you have? dont care
217. Do you have anything pierced? wow, asking the same wuestion again
218. Do you have any tattoos? wow shutup
219. What would you change about yourself? my fatness
220. Who is most likely to respond to this first? no one. at all
221. Who are the people you care most about? my close ones
222. I see: my hands
223. I need: a blow job <-- YES QUAKER TRU!!
224. I find: emptiness
225. I want: a blow job . lmao
226. I have: eyes
227. I wish: i was dead
228. I love: my guitar
229. I hate: you
230. I miss: nikolle
231. I fear: nothing
232. I feel: empty
233. I hear: Atreyu
234. I smell: my fart
235. I wonder: how many strands of hair are on my butt
236. I regret: a lot

When was the last time I ...
237. Smiled?: today
238. Laughed?: today
239. Cried?: forget
240. Bought something?: not sure
241. Danced?: now
242. Were sarcastic?: every minute i live
243. Kissed someone?: a while ago
244. Talked to an ex?: last night
245. Watched your favorite movie?: a while ago

246. Do you own any plaid clothing?: yes
247. Do you own Converse shoes?: yes
248. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no
249. Do you own old school Nikes?: np
250. Do you wear tight pants?: soemtimes
251. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: on my shorts.

In the last day:
252. Worn a skirt: nopw
253. Been mean: yes
254. Been sarcastic: YES
255. Met someone new: yes
256. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no
257. Missed someone: yes
258. Hugged someone: noppe
259. Fought with your parents: yeep
260. Wished upon a star: nope
261. Laughed until you cried: nope
262. Played Truth or Dare: nope
263. Watched a sunrise/sunset: yeap
264. Went to the beach at night: nope
265. Spent quality time alone: too much time alone to be quality
266. Read a book for fun: no way
267. Are you lonely: yes
268. Are you wearing your pajamas: kinda
269. Are you talking to someone online: yeah

gotit from quaker... later kids

I hate you. So much.

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 17:21:19 GMT

So yesterday was round two of band practice, lol everyone was shot, we didnt do too much practicing, matt and drew sat on the bean bag chairs i was on the couch and andy was maybe sleeping? on the bed. idk, and dan black was with his gf by the stairs, we were all watching family guy eating pizza, cuz we're cool. We did some run throughs of our songs, took a few more pics. Then we discussed designes for stickers and shirts again, we need a band symbol. New Pics and my Bio is posted up on the bands site so check it out! Me, Matt and Drew attempted to write a song we got a sick little thing goin but, everyone was dead and shot so nothing really came to mind lol. Then matt left early because he was leaving for NY with ali, for the whole weekend, D.B had to get his gf home, and andy well... he just left cuz he wanted to, so me and drew chilled for a bit till my mom got there.

Then i came home played some Xbox, got bored of it and stuff. I think today tho im going to get started on the customization of my Chloe (My SG) ... pretty sick shit.

She's Back...

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 03:50:43 GMT

So today was cool. I had band practice and this girl megan was there takin pics for the site... some SICK pictures. got this one of my hair all up and goin wild and im jumping, some of me on my knee splaying the slow interludes... sick shit... When they post them up ill update telling you all so you check me out! lol. Things with this band are BEYOND sick. and Drew said, and i quote "I want this fuckin kid with us when we record, his soloing is just TOO sick to leave out, Yes thats my FINAL decision!" hahah YESH!

0ur music is just so amazing, lol and i cant tack down the deadbolt right... haha probably bcuz i never practice it.

Arite kids IM OOT. later.